This whole verse is so painful to read but so beautifully written it hurts.

Although I'm not sure canon John was this physically tough, it's more the emotional pain he causes Sam that breaks my heart and makes me want to hug Sam forever and hurl John through a glass window!

Your writing is amazing and although I should be preparing for a job interview tomorrow I couldn't stop reading this - just beautifully painful and raw. I hope you write more soon!