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I don't know why I do this to myself, but I went and signed up for the SGA big bang as well as the SPN one. I'm thrilled to be writing in a new fandom, though it's harder than I remember getting a grasp on what makes these characters tick.
Plus I took some time out to plan a memorial service AND go on a roadtrip/vacation, which I will never do again...till next year. The roadtrip/vacation, I mean. I could have stayed home and spent the time writing, but I thought the time out on the road would do me good. Instead I came home exhausted, and WAY behind on my word count.
I'm aiming for 120K, because that's the amount of words I think it will take to tell a good story about Rodney and John.
I'm bored and frustrated and Real Life keeps banging on my door, so, for fun, I enter "mcshep" in the youtube search engine and come up with the following vid. It's by a vidder by the name of perkin127, and it had me in tears by the end of it. I've messed around to see if I code embed it in my post, you have to click enable java or whatever, or go here to view it:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-V9-BXNO4nE&feature=
Anyway, the story that I'm working on, while not as sad and dark as this vid, has (or WILL have) the element in it of Rodney and John's relationship falling on hard times, or at a place where they feel they can't be together. In the end of course, they ARE, because while I like my fic dark, and while I like h/c, I also love a happy ending.
But in the meantime, I'm watching this vid and thinking, yeah, this is how is must feel for them, at that point in the story, where...they part company, so to speak. I just hope I can do it as GOOD as this vid did. Rodney's expression especially killed me, when the lyrics go, "I never wanted you to be unhappy, I thought you'd want the same for me...."
Oh, lord, where's the kleenex.
Plus I took some time out to plan a memorial service AND go on a roadtrip/vacation, which I will never do again...till next year. The roadtrip/vacation, I mean. I could have stayed home and spent the time writing, but I thought the time out on the road would do me good. Instead I came home exhausted, and WAY behind on my word count.
I'm aiming for 120K, because that's the amount of words I think it will take to tell a good story about Rodney and John.
I'm bored and frustrated and Real Life keeps banging on my door, so, for fun, I enter "mcshep" in the youtube search engine and come up with the following vid. It's by a vidder by the name of perkin127, and it had me in tears by the end of it. I've messed around to see if I code embed it in my post, you have to click enable java or whatever, or go here to view it:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-V9-BXNO4nE&feature=
Anyway, the story that I'm working on, while not as sad and dark as this vid, has (or WILL have) the element in it of Rodney and John's relationship falling on hard times, or at a place where they feel they can't be together. In the end of course, they ARE, because while I like my fic dark, and while I like h/c, I also love a happy ending.
But in the meantime, I'm watching this vid and thinking, yeah, this is how is must feel for them, at that point in the story, where...they part company, so to speak. I just hope I can do it as GOOD as this vid did. Rodney's expression especially killed me, when the lyrics go, "I never wanted you to be unhappy, I thought you'd want the same for me...."
Oh, lord, where's the kleenex.