Can You Say Wow? I Knew That You Could

[lovesrain44]

This recently got posted at Fandom Secrets, which I check every day because it's so dang fun:



And I can say that I don't know when I have been as flattered as this.

Except for my friend amothea bugging me week in and week out, the stories never got a lot of feedback, so I really thought that the two of us were the only ones who liked them. That they were personal guilty pleasures only, and not....well, just not what people wanted. To find that there was at least one other person out there who also liked them, well.

I assure Anon, not at all pathetic, that I do have more stories in my head for this.

One thing I had to be sure of was to not back out of the contract I had set with myself, that John stayed John, and kept being the tough drill sergeant for the summer from hell. And that Dean and Sam remained true to the themselves in this era, somewhat at odds, not quite getting along. It's turned out to be harder than I had thought, to keep it edgy and mean. But I want to write them, I do. Writing Blue Skies took it out of me a bit, but the stories are most assuredly there. In my head.

Thank you again for the tremendous complement in being sad that there have been no updates in over a year. Over a year? I am sad too, now!

Edit: The stories did get a lot of feedback, and a lot of readers liked the darkness and the grit. I guess I always felt that since this verse was so personal to me that....oh, never mind. I'm not even sure what I'm saying now.  Foolish writer is foolish and should just write what feels good.

 

Comments

Re: Thread D (because word limits suck!)

[charmedstrange1.livejournal.com]

Of course it’s emotionally abusive! That’s part of the problem.

Ahahaha! Whew! At least we can agree on that, and I'm not totally crazy! ;)

In John’s mind (in my mind anyway) John doesn’t see the need to brood or linger over it.

I think this too is a problem for Sam, because he seems the type of kid to *need* to brood over it-- or at least discuss it and talk it all out so everybody is on the same page and all grievances are aired. At least, that's how I see Sam. Juicy fodder for angst!!

As to perspective, a 100 years ago, what John is dishing out would have been par for the course….. -- Agreed. Also, with respect to perspective, this is closer or farther to 'par for the course' for some people even today, depending on what family you grew up in- I think that's more the perspective I was thinking of.

Re: Thread D (because word limits suck!)

[lovesrain44.livejournal.com]

Sam would be so much better off if John would get a clue and figure out that Sam's cooperation would be in treating him more like an equal and less like a boy of 12. Trouble is, Sam is a boy of 12, and one of the lessons he needs to learn is to obey without question. He needs that to keep him safe. Only John can't tell him WHY he needs to obey orders in order to be safe, because that would freak Sam out. Plus, I think John some times doesn't want to take, or doesn't have the time to slow down and talk it over with Sam. And Sam gets frustrated and round and round they go, and then the belt comes off, aiiiii.

The fun part is watching them be so much like each other, and nobody recognizes it.