odd observation about long distance caller

[lovesrain44]

 Spoiler for ep.....

So I'm wondering if it was just me....during that last phone call from John to Dean, John says, "I love you, boy."

And since the monster of the week had a tendency to add, "Come to me," I found myself not paying attention to the plot at ALL at that point.

I think my brain broke something, it jumped to daddycest so fast. I'm sorry, but it's true. Dean, when he got the first phone call, was so happy to have Dad's orders to follow again. Plus, don't dads say, "I love you, son," rather than "boy?" I must tell you, the word "boy" is one of the most provocative words to me. Along with "back" and "whipping" - you say any one of those and I'm squirming in my seat. 

I could see (in my pervy brain) this whole little dark story unfold before me....where Dad and Dean had had something, some kind of relationship, maybe sexual, maybe just the leaning thing...but before they could, you know, go all the way and fuck, Dad died. So here is Dad, after death, acknowledging that relationship. Maybe they used to have sex in the dark, and Dean needed to hear those words. Now he hears them. 

"I love you, boy, come to me." A dark humid motel room...Sam gone. Rusty bedsprings. Outlines and profiles. Hands. The scruff of beard and a whiskey soft voice. 

I'm not really sure how I'm supoosed to go to work today with that in my head.

Comments

[amalthia]

It wasn't that particular line that got to me, it just the whole set up and how shattered Dean seemed by this phone call.

[lovesrain44.livejournal.com]

Well, sure, the whole idea of how Dean reacts to John's phone calls really says something about how much he misses his dad. Or that he misses someone snapping out orders, which Sam tends not to do. I'd say that yeah, that last conversation was very telling...both in his need for a dad, and his need for this particular dad. Or the relationship that the "you're my boy" line seems to evoke.

Just. Guh.

[lori-leaf.livejournal.com]

He stayed up all night just hoping John would call him! *heart breaks* Oh Deano... He totally needs his daddy (in both a porny and non-porny way.)

[lovesrain44.livejournal.com]

It breaks my heart too, the fact that he so desperately needs/wants to be somebody's "boy."

So there's another story there....he tried to be Sam's boy, but Sam wasn't having it. So now Dean is desperate....